through the jungle.

jag är sjukt bra på att gräva djupa hål. väntar bara på att någon ska täcka över hålet åt mig.
thanks. bye


with minor breakdowns every now and then, it is a little bit easier to deal with this shit world.

nordpolen II

Du grät för hela världen inatt, hela världens smärta tynger ner dig. Allt känns bottenlöst, jag vet.
Men du är inte som dom andra. Du har ingen att vända dig till, du är ensam med dina sorger och tragedier. Det är din plats i världen. Du kan aldrig bli någon annan, du kommer alltid att ramla.


Jag längtar hellre efter sånt som inte finns än det jag inte får


"people are starting to notice. and are asking questions. lies lies lies. its all you tell them. yes i ate today. i lost all the weight by eating healthy . its only 5 lbs. no its really not a big deal. im fine. im not hungry. ill eat later. cover your ass. dont let your parents see the massive weight loss. but your collar bones say everything. your waist line spills your lies. who are you kidding everyone is noticing. you try and wear baggy clothes so people wont. but the bags under your eyes are saying it all. this has consumed you. its all you can think about.  the pain. the hunger. the shaking. the light headed-ness. the binging. the purging. the restricting. all to see the bones underneath your skin. see your waist line shrink. to see the numbers on the scale to get smaller and smaller. you are too far in to quit now.

via (skinnydive)


“Love me or hate me. Either way I’m on your mind. “





"Just Because You’re Paranoid, Don’t Mean They’re Not After You.
                   -Kurt Cobain, Nirvana


14460) I talk and give advice like a big know it all. But when it comes to my life, I'm totally lost.





I wanna crash this car for once
And you can read the map, for old time’s sake
The thoughts of you can’t put out my thirst
So I share a bottle of rum with the ghost of you sitting next to me
When water is all around you, that’s when you’ll know
World’s fate is in your hands, would you let her drown?

10 things I hate about you

"I hate the way you talk to me, and the way you cut your hair.
I hate it when you drive my car, I hate it when you stare.
I hate your big dumb combat boots and the way you read my mind.
I hate you so much it makes me sick- it even makes me rhyme.
I hate the way you're always right. I hate it when you lie.
I hate it when you make me laugh- even worse when you make me cry.
I hate it when you're not around, and the fact that you didn't call.
But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you-
Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all."

note to self

Do not obsess over people that you don't know.

got it. im gonna go and die a little now.
love you. bye

this breaks my heart

every single time i watch it.

whats your secret

13567.) You drown me in the darkest self hate


then you drag me out and raise me to

the most amazing sunlight.

Fucking quit it.


just because i don't say anything,
doesn't mean i don't love you.
i put on my hood and walked away,
that doesn't mean: i don't like you


i don't like penguins.



feels like the weight of the world

im so not ok.
bad things that happened this weekend:
. some bitch stole my cellphone. i wanna kill that motherfucker.
. i made a complete fool of myself on friday: i dont wanna see anyone anymore. i wanna hide
. i didnt do my best at the concert
. i fell in love for a night
good things that happened this weekend:
i pierced my ear
. i fell in love for a night

bad vs. good.
bad wins. always.

hear you me?

It's that familiar feeling.
The feeling of a punch in the face, and another one in the stomach. It is just like the whole world wants to see you on your knees. And there is nothing you can do about it.
It's just the way it is.
All you can do is to get used to it.
So get used to it.
But it's too unfair, so you try to stand up again. And you get knocked down again.

And you stay down.

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